We were Chosen.

Well most of you now know that we were chosen! And our journey has been just wonderful, we have fears of the unknown but that is OK, we have a Mighty God on our side and will make it through no matter what happens! We found out the birth-mom is having a boy, we are super excited! we have been getting things together and the nursery all set up, we have gotten so many things handed down to us, clothes, crib, baby bath and formula, we have about 4 weeks till she is due, please be praying for her and her decision, I can't even imagine what is going through her head, I pray for her everyday and wonder how she is doing and how the baby is doing. We met with the birth-dad and birth-mom on Father's day Sunday It was so special it was the first time being so close to the baby! It was very nerve wrecking, but it was very enjoyable and she really wanted to meet us, which i understand that she needs to know we are real people and not just pictures in a profile book, to get a feel for us and all, she texted our adoption specialist later that day and said she really likes us and is glad with her decision of picking us! that gave us a huge relief. So now we just have to be patient and pray and wait......I become more nervous the closer it gets wondering if this ending is going to be a happy one or not so happy? I also wonder and my heart hurts for her and the hurt she will go through, with me wanting a baby so bad I just couldn't imagine going through something like that, we did find out that the birth-mom and birth-dad have a little girl together as well so I know she knows how all of this goes and how she is going to feel, I have never experience anything like that so I just can't imagine......If she does choose to let him go and we become parents to him, I will strive all my life to give him the greatest life possible, everyday i will cherish him and know she gave us the greatest gift ever. Knowing we may never get pregnant has taken a toll and I just keep praying that we will be able to give him a sibling whether through adopting again or pregnancy. My mind is just everywhere anymore these days, good and bad, but I know I have the Lord and My husband the greatest man the Lord has ever given me right by my side through this journey called Life.